never.ending.love.for.you____

Sunday, February 18, 2007

WORSE day of the year..or so it seems..i wldnt know for the rest of the year..
1)i jus gt ditced
2)Kaung myat thinks i saboed him...argh...its so not what i meant lor...i really didnt mean wad i did, or wadeva i caused i didnt mean it............but thrs nth i can change now..ill jus have to suffer the consequences..im really sorry.........
3)my mom keeps nagging...and its super irritatin

ok i beta ask fr tht ring back from her, she's not gonna wear it anyway...went for a night jog, but cldnt go far..think i started off too fast due to the angst and adrenaline...so i died ater like 1.6...then went to the multistorey carpark..all alone...and i decided to climb all the way to the roof......i think its illegal but who cares...its so peaceful up there...and the view is so much nicer..and i feel so free...no constrictions wadeva...feel like going there again...wish i cld sleep there..ill probably roll off the roof and die..though the roof's pretty huge..
dotx........i dunno wad to say la....i wish everything wld be ok when sch starts.......im sorry

s t i l l . l o v i n g . y o u
10:48 PM

Monday, February 05, 2007

i shall be a nice bugger and blog tonite...dunno why, but i dont usually blog.
today has been especially weird, gt a special card from someone special first thing in the morning. then the rest of the day was just trudging along...Got a fun lesson of physics..I LOVE PHYSICS PRAC..but i HATE PHYSICS THEORY!!!so im strongly considering dropping my physics, and taking up Theatre ARTs...i think the ARTS rox..well, gotta have a chat with my parents bout tht first..
The rest of the day was weird....Alot of ppl were whacking me today. JY,DB,Jaime,Fabriz,Han An, Kerriann.....see im being bullied...thts like many ppl v.s 1...not fair..
and two ppl said im not hot,directly in my face...so sad..plus they said im not good looking.........tsk...nvm, i always knew tht...haha,looks are not everything i guess, i hope................................dots

i dunno wad else to say
i doubt ppl will even read the post
but well.....who cares, im so not in the mood to do other stuff....

dots.........

s t i l l . l o v i n g . y o u
8:33 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

i havent blog in ages, if u look carefully at my last post it'd be like 2005...hehe
well here goes...orientation was FUN...OG 6 ROX..best OG..haha
Bridging course was ok....didnt die thru it, though i did miss one day, or two days?i 4got...
met a few new gerls thru the first two weeks, the nice kinds?Ama-mae..Cheryl Lousy... Wei Tsin..Genevieve..and Mai..haha...

well tht was first two weeks, then comes the posting of classes....saw my class 5.13...nobody i knew inside cept for Fraser and Wesley Chan...didnt realise it until later in the day-my class has the most number of gerls...haha...but the first day all of them looked quiet, i was afraid i'd be in a mugger class,,,,,i wldnt be able to take the peer pressure
Turns out the class has a bunch of real cool Jokers!!haha

Kerriann>>>Karrot Kueen(bday ic)
Jia Yun(J.Y)>>the girl tht retaliates most,nw has a crush toe
Han An>>Dancing Queen..Karaoke King(queen)
Wesley>>Guitar Boy
Jeremy>>bad suan-er
Fraser>>undescribable chairmen
Chaya>>oldest gerl in class, by 2 yrs
Michelle>>Rafflesian Convert!!
Jaime>>the girl with HCI bf, and quite violent(a sign of pregnancy?)
Rekha>>loves Usha(it rhymes)
Andrew>>the class well-being rep
KHAIRUL>>he rocks man..and he RULES

and the couple of the week:
Deborah(DB)>>cute little gerl who's been picked by Leon
Leon>>cute little guy who picked DB
"i only have one"

and these are the people who have made CLU!3 a success
i knoe there are alot of other ppl in class...if i left you out, its cuz i dunno wad to say bout you...haha, tell me if u want yur name included!

till nxt time

s t i l l . l o v i n g . y o u
4:27 PM

GIVE ME A CHANCE

my heart is torn into two,
whether or not to accept you,
as a fren who would care,
one whom i could bear,
ive got my pride to hold,
my shattered heart to mould,
just when i've changed anew,
those who believed were so few,
maybe i should have never tried,
maybe im meant to be the bad guy,
but this i knoe is so true,
i really did love you

s t i l l . l o v i n g . y o u
4:22 PM

Friday, April 21, 2006

See

Open.

Open your eyes and see.
See it.
See the world around you and me.
Treasure this.

Open your eyes
You’d realize
What you can see
What you can be.
You can see what’s nice
Or what you may despise.
You can see the stars in the sky
Or the birds which fly so high.
But some things vanish so fast
So seize this day
While it lasts.

Close.

Close your eyes and try to find.
Find it.
You know you can’t cuz now you’re blind.
Nothing.

You close your eyes
You can smell spice.
You can feel me
You can hear the sea.
But
You can’t see the ones you love
Or the bright clouds up above.
You can’t see if your clothes match
Or if you’ve got your school badge.
You can still be what you want to be
But you can’t see.
So seize the day
When you can see.

Unlike me
You’re lucky.

Muhammad Khairulanwar Bin Rohmat
Anglo-Chinese School (Independent)

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9:44 PM

Friday, July 22, 2005

i live in a world full of misery,
but i just keep controlling my fury,
and now i knoe tht nobody cares about me,
and i feel so lonely.....

my life is tearing me apart,
my heart feels like its just been cut
and now i think my mind is unsound,
and i feel like my whole world's turning upsiede down

CHORUS:
why cant you have more faith on me,
why cant you just gimme another try?
why cant you just let me be,
why do you have to make me cry

you're one i don wanna let go,
you're one i wanna keep till tomorrow
you're one i cant just let be free,
cuz you're one i wanan be with me
(chorus ends)

and now i realized all tht we've been through
but i still dont understand why i cant seem to,
to love you and care for you,
but i knoe tht when i do my feelings wld be so true..

CHORUS 2X

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11:13 AM

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

girls???wad are girls??????girls doint exist.....those man-like creatures with hills for chests are just aliens infesting your life,they get into you,and destroy your life....destroy thodse ALIENS!!!!

p.s.my article is in the papers today..BH..malay paper..

s t i l l . l o v i n g . y o u
10:17 PM

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

hey hazel...you wanted me to post a poem for you..so here it is.....

oh hazel
i wanna be yur fren
you make me feel feeble
i knoe i'm not yur man

you're pretty,
but you show no mercy
you treat me like a freak,
i'm not even a geek...

i dunno wad i did,
to make you feel this way,
i neva did a bit,
i neva had my say

you know that i like you,
but you made me feel worse,
i have always been so true,
you'll just throw me a curse

i wrote this poem to cheer you up,
but then yur feelings you jus sub,
so this old poem i had to change,
for now i feel a different range

i'm sad i had to write this too,
but i had to do it all for you,
for you to realise wad i am,
i don't wanna be the damned

it hurts me every time
when you say bad things
i know its not a crime
but your every word i'll cling

i dunno how to end
this sad and stupid writing
and then i know i can
cuz that's just wad i'm doing
…¦(…
©khairul poems

s t i l l . l o v i n g . y o u
8:16 PM